I'm actually on day 338 today. But this is what went down last week.
"Settle into how you are," said the teacher at the beginning of class.
Which I did (wellll, tried to. Because it's not really something one can start and finish just like that...snap.....but let me jump ahead a sec to when I got back from class and tweeted my daily mantra (find all my tweets right here).
Seconds after pressing Send, a follower tweeted back saying "Funny. I thought you wrote 'Settle Into *Who* You Are!'" Which is actually just as important, no?
So, how am I? Who am I? And am I at peace with it all?
As for *who*, I won't bore you with details about my personality and resumé, but I will tell you this: There's a handful of things I like about myself...and a smaller bunch of things (accomplishments, work achievements etc) that I'm really proud of am. So yeah, I'm pretty much okay with who I'm growing into.
But when it comes to *how* I am.... ugh. *How* depends on the day, the amount of sleep I've gotten, the weather, if my kids eat the food I've prepped, how many times I need to get on the floor and sweep up in a twelve hour period, if my hair looks good and many other details (both in and out of my control). *How* asks me to assess my own actions and "grade" myself. *How* requires that I look into myself and honestly ascertain if I'm giving my all, being as nice as I can be and making a difference. And for me to "settle" into all that would mean that I'd have to be satisfied with how I am, at least most of the time. Otherwise, the mantra of settling into how I am seems like a total copout. Like an invitation to explain away evil and lameness. (Hey, that's just me. Get over it. I did).
So, I'm all for settling further into *who* I am, because yeah, that *is* just me. As for how I am, I don't want to settle at all. Because I'm just not satisfied yet....